I'm done with my seatwork so my prof let me surf the net. soooo I'm amazed that I'm actually surfing from class. haha! To those who have done this before, this rocks. haha! It's like you're doing something that you're not supposed to, but you can because your prof let you.. err, catch my drift? shoutouts to rizza my sistah.. gau our usher, rash my seatmate at the far end of the room, cam who is on the other side, and I will enumerate my classmates because I can..

Jane, Rin, Jc, Myzyl, Den, Melanie, Pam, Kristel, Anj, Mon, Kat, Ryan, Pau, Sheena, Paul, Vanessa, Tren, Zaren, Diane,Jade, Tutay, Winkee and Mike!! Whew. I got dizzy looking back at everyone all the time.. err.. what else do I have to say?


pardon my useless post. it's just fun fun fun!

Saturday was a pretty busy day for me.. Friday alone was drop-dead-on-the-bed day. I met up with pau at school and we payed for our tuition. We met up with some org mates and she dealt with some things.. Then Vincent was kind enough to drop us off at Galleria since we had to meet ADMU people regarding this inter-school project. I'll discuss this in my next post. Anyway, one highlight of the day was Kai, Caw and I at the theatre watching the premiere of the Series of Unfortunate Events. (thanks Cat!) It was my birthday gift for her since she was waiting since forever for the movie to come out! I receommend you watch this movie when the regular showing starts in Feb. We also had fun with the posters after the movie ended.

 


We then took a bad to Country Waffles at Anapolis to celebrate Alessa's 21st birthday. We had noooo idea that it was going to be semi-formal! haha! It's a good thing we were dressed well enough to slip by the other people. It was fun, and I really miss my high school friends. Camwhoring completed our day. Mini Stop rocks. And I really had a good time.


  
 
   

Pau, Kai, Cawhitt, Misty.. thank you guys sooo much for making Saturday really great. It's those days that make you miss High School even more.

and I had my hair done today and took this shot I reaaally like.
 

I'm guilty of this. I always have. I've known for a very long time now that I enjoy loving and being loved. For me, it's the best feeling in the world! I've grown to love knowing that each day, someone cares for me and that feeling is mutual. But it's not that it's cracked up to be. I think I'm loving him to much. I believe this was triggered when I learned that I am really leaving for Canada come March'06. I don't think I can handle this situation without his assurance that we'll hold onto everything we can. He doesn't want us to expect anything to save ourselves from the agonoy that is to come. Is it right to assume the worst and hope for the best, when I want to do my best to make it happen? I just don't think I can sit around and wait for come what may. I know I'll be gone for a long time (maybe 4 years) But I promised myself that I'm old enough to make my own decisions and I want to come home. I am just doing this to please my parents so they can't say anything against me. I'm just following my Mom's will. It sucks, I know. But I'm in no postition to back out.

I'm just not sure what to do anymore. Crying myself to sleep has been crossed out seeing it's not as effective as I thought it would be. Maybe I should just stop thinking altogether. That would numb the pain.

It's hard to hold onto something when there's nothing to hold onto.

He doesn't want any of us to get hurt.. and I understand that completely. I know he loves me. But I'm just not sure if it's enough to wait the 4 years. I'm going to visit. I'm going to earn money and make sure I visit. But then, who knows what will happen? I just don't think I'd want to spend the rest of my days here drifting apart so we'll have an easier time. I just don't think and feel it's right.

I just needed to let this out...





The one I did last night disappeared.. *stupid exlorer.* Anyway, I'm making this equally long and I'd better finish better the first day of the year ends. Yes, this is my First Day of the Year Obligatory Post.

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1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?

I'd have to say the most memorable ones are.. falling in love with photography, organizing college events, going away with friends for more than 2 days with my parents approval even if it's not school-related, losing my phone (*sniff*)...


2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I always start the year with resolutions, then I forget about then a few months later.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My cousin Manang Anna did. :)

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Thankfully not. I don't really know how to react to these things.

5. What countries did you visit?
None this year.

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
More cash. More time. More sleep. More peace.

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
As cheesy as it may seem to you guys, Feb. 14, 2004 will forever be remembered. Who can forget a day that your boyfriend cooks for you complete with a candle-lit ambiance..

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Thanks to the Student Council, my inner self is pleased. And, the parade. mermaid anyone? :)

9. What was your biggest failure?
PROCRASTINATION

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
They still havn't found the cure for the common cold.. WHICH I GET EVERY MORNING.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My Christmas gift for Dino.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
hmmm...

13. Whose behaviour appalled you and made you depressed?
This would have to be mine..

14. Where did most of your money go?
Plates (schoolwork), food, materials..

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
The Incubus Concert. *grin*

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
Incubus crow left of the murder, Rivermaya, Bamboo, Session Road, Parokya ni Edgar Inuman Sessions..

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder? happ-ey
ii. thinner or fatter? CHUBBY as always
iii. richer or poorer? Poo.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Relax..

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Procrastinate.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
We already did. It was cool. There were less of us tho. :(

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
Still am. :)

23. How many one-night stands?
Zilch.

24. What was your favourite TV program?
Will & Grace, Nip/tuck, Charmed, CSI, Discovey, Animal Planet, Disney..

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Naaaaah..

26. What was the best book you read?
Da Vinci Code (movie is comin' out soon..), HP5, Chronicles or narnia, Teen Angst..

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
No matter how hard I try, I am not musically inclined.

28. What did you want and get?
Cash.. Love. :)

29. What did you want and not get?
Some million dollars..

30. Favorite film of this year?
50 First dates, Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind..

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Didn't do nothin. Turned 20. *blech*

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Getting some million dollars

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
Jeans, tee, dirty worn out chucks..

34. What kept you sane?
Dino. Friends. Love.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Nona.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Elections. *shudder*

37. Who did you miss?
Cham. Beans. Reina. Cawhitt. Nades. Maan. Misty. .. *must I name everyone? this just makes me sadder.*

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Karla is cool. :)

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.
Friendship is important. What's more important is accepting yourself. And procrastinating makes everything worse for everyone!

40. Will you miss 2004
Yup, but we must move on. This is another begininng..

----------------

Probably my favorite photographs I've taken this year:

----------------

My best discoveries this year:
1. My Livejournal, My Blog, My Multiply account..

2. The Nedboarders (Ned, ChairmanSquip, Che, Simone., LoserDude_beatSerena, Serena, Lauren, Emo, ReaganChan, spool, Steph, Brian.. all you guys. :)

3. Make-up isn't really bad.

4. Pink rocks.

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Okay, I'm ready to welcome the New Year, now.

WELCOME 2005

I'm done with my seatwork so my prof let me surf the net. soooo I'm amazed that I'm actually surfing from class. haha! To those who have done this before, this rocks. haha! It's like you're doing something that you're not supposed to, but you can because your prof let you.. err, catch my drift? shoutouts to rizza my sistah.. gau our usher, rash my seatmate at the far end of the room, cam who is on the other side, and I will enumerate my classmates because I can..

Jane, Rin, Jc, Myzyl, Den, Melanie, Pam, Kristel, Anj, Mon, Kat, Ryan, Pau, Sheena, Paul, Vanessa, Tren, Zaren, Diane,Jade, Tutay, Winkee and Mike!! Whew. I got dizzy looking back at everyone all the time.. err.. what else do I have to say?


pardon my useless post. it's just fun fun fun!

Saturday was a pretty busy day for me.. Friday alone was drop-dead-on-the-bed day. I met up with pau at school and we payed for our tuition. We met up with some org mates and she dealt with some things.. Then Vincent was kind enough to drop us off at Galleria since we had to meet ADMU people regarding this inter-school project. I'll discuss this in my next post. Anyway, one highlight of the day was Kai, Caw and I at the theatre watching the premiere of the Series of Unfortunate Events. (thanks Cat!) It was my birthday gift for her since she was waiting since forever for the movie to come out! I receommend you watch this movie when the regular showing starts in Feb. We also had fun with the posters after the movie ended.

 


We then took a bad to Country Waffles at Anapolis to celebrate Alessa's 21st birthday. We had noooo idea that it was going to be semi-formal! haha! It's a good thing we were dressed well enough to slip by the other people. It was fun, and I really miss my high school friends. Camwhoring completed our day. Mini Stop rocks. And I really had a good time.


  
 
   

Pau, Kai, Cawhitt, Misty.. thank you guys sooo much for making Saturday really great. It's those days that make you miss High School even more.

and I had my hair done today and took this shot I reaaally like.
 

I'm guilty of this. I always have. I've known for a very long time now that I enjoy loving and being loved. For me, it's the best feeling in the world! I've grown to love knowing that each day, someone cares for me and that feeling is mutual. But it's not that it's cracked up to be. I think I'm loving him to much. I believe this was triggered when I learned that I am really leaving for Canada come March'06. I don't think I can handle this situation without his assurance that we'll hold onto everything we can. He doesn't want us to expect anything to save ourselves from the agonoy that is to come. Is it right to assume the worst and hope for the best, when I want to do my best to make it happen? I just don't think I can sit around and wait for come what may. I know I'll be gone for a long time (maybe 4 years) But I promised myself that I'm old enough to make my own decisions and I want to come home. I am just doing this to please my parents so they can't say anything against me. I'm just following my Mom's will. It sucks, I know. But I'm in no postition to back out.

I'm just not sure what to do anymore. Crying myself to sleep has been crossed out seeing it's not as effective as I thought it would be. Maybe I should just stop thinking altogether. That would numb the pain.

It's hard to hold onto something when there's nothing to hold onto.

He doesn't want any of us to get hurt.. and I understand that completely. I know he loves me. But I'm just not sure if it's enough to wait the 4 years. I'm going to visit. I'm going to earn money and make sure I visit. But then, who knows what will happen? I just don't think I'd want to spend the rest of my days here drifting apart so we'll have an easier time. I just don't think and feel it's right.

I just needed to let this out...





The one I did last night disappeared.. *stupid exlorer.* Anyway, I'm making this equally long and I'd better finish better the first day of the year ends. Yes, this is my First Day of the Year Obligatory Post.

----------------

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?

I'd have to say the most memorable ones are.. falling in love with photography, organizing college events, going away with friends for more than 2 days with my parents approval even if it's not school-related, losing my phone (*sniff*)...


2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I always start the year with resolutions, then I forget about then a few months later.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My cousin Manang Anna did. :)

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Thankfully not. I don't really know how to react to these things.

5. What countries did you visit?
None this year.

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
More cash. More time. More sleep. More peace.

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
As cheesy as it may seem to you guys, Feb. 14, 2004 will forever be remembered. Who can forget a day that your boyfriend cooks for you complete with a candle-lit ambiance..

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Thanks to the Student Council, my inner self is pleased. And, the parade. mermaid anyone? :)

9. What was your biggest failure?
PROCRASTINATION

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
They still havn't found the cure for the common cold.. WHICH I GET EVERY MORNING.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My Christmas gift for Dino.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
hmmm...

13. Whose behaviour appalled you and made you depressed?
This would have to be mine..

14. Where did most of your money go?
Plates (schoolwork), food, materials..

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
The Incubus Concert. *grin*

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
Incubus crow left of the murder, Rivermaya, Bamboo, Session Road, Parokya ni Edgar Inuman Sessions..

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder? happ-ey
ii. thinner or fatter? CHUBBY as always
iii. richer or poorer? Poo.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Relax..

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Procrastinate.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
We already did. It was cool. There were less of us tho. :(

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
Still am. :)

23. How many one-night stands?
Zilch.

24. What was your favourite TV program?
Will & Grace, Nip/tuck, Charmed, CSI, Discovey, Animal Planet, Disney..

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Naaaaah..

26. What was the best book you read?
Da Vinci Code (movie is comin' out soon..), HP5, Chronicles or narnia, Teen Angst..

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
No matter how hard I try, I am not musically inclined.

28. What did you want and get?
Cash.. Love. :)

29. What did you want and not get?
Some million dollars..

30. Favorite film of this year?
50 First dates, Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind..

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Didn't do nothin. Turned 20. *blech*

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Getting some million dollars

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
Jeans, tee, dirty worn out chucks..

34. What kept you sane?
Dino. Friends. Love.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Nona.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Elections. *shudder*

37. Who did you miss?
Cham. Beans. Reina. Cawhitt. Nades. Maan. Misty. .. *must I name everyone? this just makes me sadder.*

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Karla is cool. :)

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.
Friendship is important. What's more important is accepting yourself. And procrastinating makes everything worse for everyone!

40. Will you miss 2004
Yup, but we must move on. This is another begininng..

----------------

Probably my favorite photographs I've taken this year:

----------------

My best discoveries this year:
1. My Livejournal, My Blog, My Multiply account..

2. The Nedboarders (Ned, ChairmanSquip, Che, Simone., LoserDude_beatSerena, Serena, Lauren, Emo, ReaganChan, spool, Steph, Brian.. all you guys. :)

3. Make-up isn't really bad.

4. Pink rocks.

----------------

Okay, I'm ready to welcome the New Year, now.

WELCOME 2005